It's Not Up to Me

It's Not Up to Me

Like a lot of people, I struggle with guilt. Being a wife, business owner, parent, or even just a human being brings up all kinds of emotions. I think about the ‘what ifs’ and ‘could have beens’ a lot, and I often take on burdens I was never made to bear. For me, this has particularly happened when I began life as a mother just two years ago. I felt guilty when I worked instead of playing with Willow. I felt guilty when I felt like I was neglecting my business. I struggled when I dropped her off at YMCA childcare to try and work, and I felt even worse when I lost my temper towards her because I had to get something done and her needs interfered with mine.

From the first day I called Nathan in tears because I felt like I couldn’t handle having a baby and a business, he suggested we look into daycare options. I stubbornly refused. Part of the reason is because I wanted to own a business so that I could work from home and spend more time with my kids. Part of the reason is because with adoption, early bonding is crucial to having a safe and loving home environment for a child who experienced trauma at too early of an age…

StitchFix vs. ThredUp...which one is better? | Personal

StitchFix vs. ThredUp...which one is better? | Personal

Part of the beauty in this blog is that I get to write not just about photography, but also about so much of my life…and some of the most popular I have written are the most surprising, like my blog on the best alternatives to Tieks! So here is my latest venture in trying new things so you can read about what I liked, what I didn’t, and what I’ll do in the future.

A few weeks ago, a friend was wearing an outfit that looked SO good on her, yet it was one I didn’t imagine her picking out for herself. When I asked her, she started raving about StitchFix and how her stylist had put together the perfect recommendations. I was hooked by the idea - I love a good, polished outfit but I am often unsure how pieces fit together, and I need a little help to make one piece of clothing look even more amazing by what I wear with it. With a $25 discount in hand from her affiliate link, I went online to sign up for my box…

Willow the Toddler | Personal

Willow the Toddler | Personal

When I was thinking about what I could blog, I looked back on my schedule and realized I haven’t posted an update about Willow in forever! I’ve never been one to stick to a regular schedule with this, but she has grown immensely since the last time I talked about her - in fact, she was just a baby in my eyes when she was last featured on my blog! Today she is a full-fledged toddler, and only a few months away from turning 2, which seems absolutely impossible as I think back on the 5lb 14oz baby I held just moments ago…

There were flashes of Willow’s personality that we saw from the beginning. She has never been a snuggler, and she has always been happy being held or played with by (almost) anyone. Even when she was tiny she had never met a stranger, and all this continues to be true…