A Bittersweet (25th) Birthday | Monday Musings

 My Quarter Life Crisis

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I turned 25 yesterday. To some of you that sounds young – maybe to a lot of you in fact – and I know in my head that it is. But if I’m being honest, this was the first birthday I have ever somewhat dreaded. I always love my birthday. I always make a big deal out of it, and love it when others do the same. This year just felt a little different.

I know beyond the shadow of a doubt that the heartbreak we experienced last month has affected everything since then. I thought I would be a mom by now and while Beyond that, I had in mind that I would be somewhere different at 25 – it always felt like such a big age to me growing up. Now that I’m here, it doesn’t feel as big – but it does feel a little more serious and a lot more scary than any other year.

With all that said, though, I can’t ignore how awesome my birthday weekend was. Nathan and I celebrated how we love to – by traveling! Our amazing friends let us use their beach house in Corolla and we braved the snow on Friday night to make it down. Saturday was a glorious bunch of nothing. We went on a few walks, with one involving a cup of local coffee for me, but other than that we spent time with each other doing very little. It was incredible and a much needed break.

Nathan had planned to take me out to a very fancy dinner Saturday night, but for some reason I just wanted to do something different. I know that going to Africa changed me in many ways, and this weekend it caused me to re-think how much we would spend on a birthday dinner. I don’t think there’s anything wrong with celebrating, or even with fine dining! But for me, and for us, it felt too strange to eat at such a nice restaurant after visiting a third-world country.

Instead, we went to Whole Foods. No, I’m not kidding! We made an adventure out of choosing a dozen different things to eat and we left happy and full, with good memories, having spent what one dish would have cost at a fancier restaurant. It couldn’t have been more perfect.

From start to finish, this birthday was different from any one before. It has been so bittersweet – I think a lot of things will feel bittersweet for a little while – but at the same time, I have nothing but great memories to look back on. Dozens of cards from family and friends, birthday gifts, amazing coffee, a warm house on the coldest weekend of the year…I could go on for hours.

My birthday was bittersweet this year, but it was perfect. I have nothing but gratefulness in my heart for what’s ahead. And maybe that’s what turning 25 is all about. 

Here's our view from the snowy Outer Banks!

 My Quarter Life Crisis | Monday Musings
 My Quarter Life Crisis | Monday Musings

Maria Grace Photography

My name is Maria, and I am a wedding and family photographer based out of Hampton Roads, Virginia, but I am always excited about traveling. I love families who truly enjoy spending time with each other and living life together. I love couples that are looking forward to their wedding day because they are so excited to finally be married to.