Life Right Now: An Adoption Timeline and Update | Personal

Life Right Now: An Adoption Timeline and Update | Personal

When I first began blogging about our adoption story on this blog, I knew I was inviting a lot of people into our lives. This is a responsibility that I do not take lightly and, as such, there have been times it has weighed heavily on me. Giving an update is not always incredibly exciting or fun (whether due to our heartaches or a lack of news), but with so many people asking where we are I know I am well overdue to answer that question.

So where are we right now? Quite simply, we are waiting...and have been for awhile. We took a few months off the list of waiting parents this fall, but as of January, we have our names back in the pool. Our profile has been shown to birth moms a few times but we have not yet been chosen again.

How do you guys feel? In a word: tired...

The Thing that Shook My Faith | Monday Musings

I realize that it’s been radio silence over here on the adoption process ever since the last blog I posted, and now that I am removed from what happened I can say why – less than 4 months after Joel passed away we had another unsuccessful adoption attempt. And as much as January hurt me, this loss completely silenced me in a way I never anticipated.

We were notified that we had been chosen by a birth mother in mid-March, just 2 Β½ months after our traumatic loss. Though she was not due until late in the summer it seemed like a sure thing and I was strangely not filled with the anxiety that I anticipated with our next successful match. We already had what we needed to bring a little one home so preparation was not really necessary, and we knew it would just be a long road ahead filled with waiting until our babe came...

5 Things I've Learned about Grief | Monday Musings

5 Things I've Learned about Grief | Monday Musings

Before the last few weeks of my life, I had never truly dealt with grief. I had been extremely sad over friends and family members passing away, some even unexpectedly, but I was certainly not prepared for the passing of our first son before he even took a breath (read the story here if you missed it). The grief that ensued in the weeks following was unlike anything I'd gone through before. In some ways I am still in the middle of working through this process, but over the last month I've learned some things I never thought I'd experience. Again, I'm writing this because I need to share it and it needs to be heard - and I hope you never have to go through true grief in your lifetime...